Tuesday, March 4, 2014

The Diminishers

There are always those people in life who, no matter how well you treat them, they feel like you owe them everything in the world. 
There are always those people in life who, no matter how hard you try, will always, always, always, tear all your efforts down with just a sentence, within seconds. These people are those that we hate, A LOT. They are what I call the "Diminishers" in life. 

Every single time, they just break you down, coldly; without even a second thought. Not even realizing it themselves. "Your problems are not problems, only my problems are real problems" might not be what they say literally but their actions says it all. They are like narcissists, but worse: to boast themselves up, they push you further down. They step on you so hard, yet you let them. They make you feel worthless and make you think that there is nothing you can do without them. 

Broken down, torn apart, bleeding wounds. You try to smile and say it's okay, to others and to yourself. But really, is it really okay? Every time they do the same thing over and over and over again, you feel the pain starting again. Not like putting salt on wounds, because even though salt makes your wounds hurt like hell, it helps in healing despite the pain. No, it's not like putting salt on wounds. Far worse, it is like cutting open a wound that has yet to be healed, and driving the knife deeper and deeper, every, single, time. It gets harder and harder to heal. 

When you've had enough, and the volcano is on the verge of erupting. You scream inside of you, your words in my head, your knives in my heart. I had enough! You just can't take it any more. You want to run, you want to hide, you just want to disappear from their sight. You want to scream and shout in their faces, you want to give them two tight slaps. 

BUT.... You stop, breathe, and kneel. With tears in your eyes, you plea. 

"Oh God, I can't... I can't take it any more. How do I love someone who just breaks me down, and tears me apart? All I see is my good efforts going to waste. What use is there to do good any more?" 

"So let's not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don't give up." 
-Ephesians 6:9- 

“But I say to you who hear: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you." 
-Luke 6:27-